Song of the Moment

This Boy by James Morrison

this boy wants to play
there's no time left today
it's a shame coz he has to go home
this boy's got to work, got to sweat
just to pay what he gets to get left all alone

let's step outside
let's go for a ride just for a while
no we won't get caught
well that's what i thought until we cried

i'm still here
but it hasn't been easy
i'm sure
that you had your reasons
i'm scared
of all this emotion
for years i've been holding it down
for years i've been holding it down

this girl tries her best every day
but it's all gone to waste
coz there's no one around
this girl she can draw she can paint
likes to dance she can skate
now she don't make a sound

we'll play in the park until it's too dark for us to see
well we'll make our way home
with mud on our clothes
she won't be pleased

for years i've been holding it down
and i'd love to forgive and forget
so i'll try to put all this behind us
just know that my arms are wide open
the older i get the more than i know
well it's time to let this go


Gotta love the lyrics...

And gotta love Grace for passing me such nice songs too...

Old School

Took down the videos, coz they slowed down my blog, but here's the links if u want them..

For people who haven't saw these before, i found some videos called street fighter: the later years, pretty amusing...

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3

Enjoy..

dreams forsaken,
people saddened,
all for a promise

naivity proven,
purposefully ignorant,
all for a person

the greatest joy in the world is to be able to say the words I Love You to someone with your whole heart, and not worry about the what-if's...

Finding the past.

I kinda recovered old photos I thought were long lost.. As predicted, the bouts of nostalgia hits me yet again..

Can't help thinking of the past, of happier days, simpler times, easier lives.

Got reminded of times where I was still so involved in the world around me. Jss gatherings, bbqs which I don't like organising, but do anyways just to see everyone. Of DNA and the countless late nights out having supper. Of being part of BAOC, looking at freshies and their confused faces when they first came in, of that stupid rap i came up with. Of YV, and my brush with volunteering.

How can someone be busy, and still keep all his friends close?

Someone or someones has to be left out, neglected. Force of circumstances? More like opportunity cost, cynical as it sounds. But I guess these kind of things go round in a cycle, and in the end you return to those whom, ultimately to you in your life, mean the most.

Ah well, me and my ranting off again...

"Why does it always rain on me? Is it because I lied when i was seventeen..."

Nonchalant

That describes how i feel about everything now adays. The best way to describe to anyone my current mood would be well, moodless. I don't know since when, but i'm becoming more and more uncaring about the world around me. Its not as though i'm cold blooded, its just that i can no longer relate as much to people as i used to. Too much has been going on these few weeks, its as though major life changing decisions are saved for the end of the year for everyone. I guess that caring for others is getting tiring, draining, so much so that i've given up trying...


oh well. i'm just wierd now adays. irritable, cold, and not what i'm supposed to be.

One for the brother

For the last minute projects,
for the balcony smokes and talks,
for watching Friends and getting a deadly bout of nostalgia,
for not being able to finish one single pint of Hoegaarden,
for cottage fries and cheese,
for gunbound-ing when we should be doing BLaw,
for Naruto, OC, Prison Break and all the random shows,
for getting EMO after The Classic,
for clubbing at MOS,
for the free rides home,
for random pillow fights,
for Melbourne,
for agreeing to watch the lame hilary duff movie,
for El Deliciouso,
for suaning me about my laughter,
for letting me suan you about being a little kid,
for being like a blood-related brother and loyal friend.

Thanks Jerms.





(this post is really gay, but fark he's leaving for the states next year!!!)

Cheena Moments

Oh well, found too very apt songs of the moment.






enjoy.

Love

is a subject I'm in no position to comment on, its like one of the greater mysteries of life to me. Love doesn't seem to make sense at all. Seeing the way it troubles everyone around me just gets me more confused. Its not like a don't understand or feel their pain, but why are people still doing things that they obviously know will hurt them more? Why would you still stay after you know that love is at it's end, holding on, hoping for a miracle? Why love when there's not even trust? Why would you say something so blunt and brutal to someone whom to your friends, it seems you truly love? Why are all relationships so fragile?

I guess i've become cynical as the years pass... Nothing seems to bother nor surprise me anymore... Just take life as it is i guess.

Disgusted with myself.

I'm absolutely disgusted with my spending habits. I spend too much and earn too little. Why can't the army pay me more!!!!! Especially now that i need to feed myself daily in camp.....

I'm bitching, because my mom asked me to look for a part time job, and i really wish that something decent would come along. Its not like I enjoy being financially dependant on my parents.....

Oh well... This marks the beginning of me starting the blog again...