-blogging whats on my mind-



i've never been good at relationships. i don't think i ever will be. you see, every time i finally decide that i'm actually in love, i'll screw up. i'll become childish, irritating, a pain in the ass. i'll do things i never meant to do. but i do things for a reason. i don't, or should i say can't, keep my emotions in line for long. everytime i draw near to someone, i'll predictably and systematically fall in love. which sucks. some might say it's probably an infatuation, and they're right half the time. but the few times they were wrong, all i really wanted to do, was to give it all i've got, so as to not regret not taking action at all. coz i've made that mistake once, and i never ever want to do that ever again.

i think i'm too affectionate for my own good at times. and yes, screw the whole nice guy streak. who the fuck cares or gives a damn or notices if you're a nice guy. sure, they'll like you, that is, as a friend, but no matter, the bad guys get the girls. soft spot theory, simple as that. so from now on, i don't think i'll be a nice guy anymore. who says i can't? there's always a bastard lying dormant inside each and every guy.

the world's fucked up. so am i.