i'm in need of money. any one with smart ideas?

keeping myself busy with work seems like a fun way of not wallowing in self-pity....

was just telling gracie yesterday night that i was paving my way towards self destruction. how fun huh? humans are funny creatures... the women have the o-so-popular slit the wrist habits, and the guys prefer killing their lungs and liver....

oh well...

there's a lot of things i don't get in the world.... why can't you get over him when you know he's a jerk? its like walking towards a minefield knowing you'd get hurt, but still moving that way no matter what.... what would be the end result, do you really think that you'd get him back, and he'd be a changed person? that he'll love you like they do in fairy tales? it doesn't work that way does it?