After Ever After

The old ones are the best..... Part 2

2009-10-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

- drafted 27 Feb 05 / published 24 Oct 09-

call me stubborn, naive, dUMb or whatever you want, but i still think that my shield of indifference would work. that me actively trying to feel dispassionate about her life, her woes, would keep me from ever repeating what i feel is one of the biggest mistakes of my life. one that i would helplessly make over and over again if i ever allow myself. so i'm not gonna be friends with her, things are never gonna be "ok". deep down i know the indifference is just a charade, but constantly keeping that up is still simpler then the complications that would occur if i ever fall for her again. sure, i miss her. the voice that i love hearing, especially the laughter. the hugs. the whining. the silly little gifts. its tempting, really, but i'm just too afraid, cos i know i'll never ever be satisfied being just friends with her.

if there ever was true love, i guess that's the closest i'll ever get to it.

the girl who was the turning point of my life.
the girl who made me want to pick up the piano, so that i could play her favorite song at the time.
the girl who made me want to be less quiet.
the girl whom i'll willingly save soggy fries for.
the girl whom i'll rush down to meet, even at 3 am in the morning
the girl who made me first experience the expression of "heart melting"
the girl who contributed to the most heart wrenching moment of my life
the girl whom i've baked brownies for
the girl whom i've wrote a song for
the girl named felicia.

yue yun ah... i know how it is... you'll never ever feel that way for me...

oh well. thats life....

i'm happy with life now anyways...

The old ones are the best.....

2009-10-24T20:29:00.000+08:00

Sick Cycle Carousel.

publishing something that's two years old is somewhat refreshing, so here goes:

Kevin, the unseen collection.

-drafted 1st may 07 / published 24 Oct 09-

And I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..
When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.

Same old mistakes. Ones I've committed not once, not twice. Nicolas Cage chose to fall for the person he loved. I didn't have a choice, I fell helplessly, yet again.

I hate it when it happens. Every single time. But i can't help it. I can't distant myself from you. I can't keep away. I can't help feel the whole world revolves around you. Or that I want to be part of your everyday life.

I can't lie to myself saying we're just going to be friends. I can't be selfless and say I'll be happy just to see you happy. Not anymore. Which is why I'm running once more. Cos I know you better then you know yourself. And I know exactly what you feel for me. How I'll forever be a friend. How, with your character, even if you do really see this, you'll never ever talk about it. Do you even know that I can tell when your smile's too hard to be real? I ever wished we could have a heart to heart talk. So that one day we could talk, without beating around the bush. So that I can finally make you acknowledge my feelings for you, make you understand how deep they run.

I don't care if the whole world finds out anymore. I'm tired. Tired of acting alright , of standing there watching and letting you hurt yourself. Tired of you disappearing. Tired of not being able to say what I feel. Tired of not being able to say the simplest I Love You, for fear of you running away yet again. So here it is. See it if you can. Or let it just be random rambling if you choose to.

To everyone else, pardon me yet again.

2007-11-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

The world at large might not have noticed your passing.
But every one of us that was there today will carry with us a part of you.
Fond memories of good times, bitter sweet ones of the bad.

Life is unfair. For how could it have been time for you to go?
But leave it to us to carry on.
To fulfill those dreams we shared.

Wait for me at the finish line bro, I'll get there some day.
Perhaps we could sit down and share a smoke and a beer again then.

R.I.P. Melvin.

2007-09-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

Wasted. Stoned. Drunk.

A few words I'd use to describe the weekend just over.

Never again. Its not fun to be irresponsible.

2007-07-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

why bother what other people say about other people?

2007-07-10T18:47:00.000+08:00

Since the beginning of History, people have forgotten to enjoy the here and now, but instead worrying about the past, and being afraid of the future.

Why?

2007-07-03T18:19:00.000+08:00

I was on a cab on the way out yesterday, and this stupid song came up on my iPod.. 1 word.. Chui..

yeah, he ain't heavy.

2007-06-30T04:41:00.000+08:00

i twisted my ankle. now it fits with my twisted view on the world.

2007-06-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

why can't people just say what exactly they want in the beginning? why all that complication for no good farking reason?

2007-06-26T21:56:00.000+08:00

this all started out as harmless banter.

but i think i might have tripped.... or should i say fallen?

you win.

2007-06-19T19:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... look what i found on collegehumour...

2007-06-17T16:39:00.000+08:00

screaming your lungs out at the wee hours of the morning?

i likey......

Crossroads

2007-06-03T03:15:00.000+08:00

Apt that the song came up earlier during the conversation. Its nice to hang out once in a while just with the bro. Odd that we seem to become more cordial with each other when its just the both of us don't you think? I guess making fun of each other is more of a crowd activity... Had fun sitting down just chilling, listening to the band and counting people with bad dress sense today. Lets do it more while we still can bro..

2007-04-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

I've become cold and uncaring. The world just ceased to be amusing anymore.

2007-03-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

there's a whole new meaning to the term "fuck the exams!"

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

2007-03-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

Nonchalance, my current best friend.

Its easy to cease to care, and very addictive....

Endings.

2007-03-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

The OC ended. Like a lot of things recently did.

I'm upset.

2007-02-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

i don't get a lot of the recent post by people around me.. oh well...

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2007-02-18T09:48:00.000+08:00

Ang Bao collecting starts NOW!

2007-02-13T19:37:00.000+08:00

Its a little late to be writing this, but last sat night was really fun! Drinking cheap alcohol at Cheverons was really enjoyable, chilling out at the pool side was as good as it always will be, playing "I have never" was not really that all-revealing since we tend to share too much anyways..

Well the whole hot air-con and having to squeeze 4 on a bed was probably the worse thing ever..

I need a bigger bed.

2007-02-08T19:44:00.000+08:00

This is one of those mario things.. Really cool.

2007-02-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

anyone free to go shopping next monday afternoon?

2007-02-04T21:37:00.000+08:00

ah... valentine's day is coming.... and i'm single....

thank god. or i'll be broker then broke. :D

2007-02-03T03:07:00.000+08:00

friends are like anchors. keeps you from drifting too far off course.

Time

2007-01-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

The most precious thing in the world. I wish i could have 48 hour days, that the period between dusk to dawn was much long, that i could last without sleep for 10 days without a problem, so that i can fit everything into my schedule.. It seems as though whenever i start arranging an appointment, many more would miraculously pop out at the same time... its like suddenly the whole world wants to meet on friday and everyone seems to be busy with their own stuff on other days so its their only day free? gee... with things like that going on, i wish i had a 2 day work week... haha..

oh well...

2007-01-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

heart wrenching pain. i finally felt it.

did you seriously think a simple Sorry would make a difference?

Song of the Moment.

2007-01-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

One More Night by Stars

"try as he might he's unable to speak
he grabs her by the hair, he strokes her on the cheek
the bed is unmade like everything is
dark little heaven at the top of the stairs
take me like that, ruin it all
then build it again by the light in the hall
he drops to his knees says please my love, please
i'll kill who you hate, take off that dress, you won't freeze"

found a video of it.. one that doesn't move...

This one's for glor...

2007-01-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

I went missing. I used a lousy excuse when you asked. Disappeared without a trace. But you didn't give up on me darling. And you gave me the bestest best christmas present I would ever want. It just proves how much you know me! Oh well.... What I really wanted to say is I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and yeah, maybe now I really have to marry you.

Some people are not worth waiting for.

2007-01-15T03:13:00.000+08:00

to huiqing:

thanks for being my inspiration and motivation. no, don't be happy or proud that your "prep talks" pulled me through when i needed it. when you suddenly disappeared just like she did, i was finally able to see what everyone was telling me without emotions attached or thinking that she was different from others. so yes, i finally understand what it means when people say i'm being played around with. that she's not worth it.

being nice is not ever going to let you survive in this world.

to she who disappeared:
this is it. no more waiting, no more symphathy. don't say i didn't give you ample time to explain yourself. if this is how you treat all your friends, don't ever blame them from walking out of your life. sure you'll make new friends, but how many real ones would you have in the end? the thing is i'm not going to care anymore.

2007 is going to turn up to be a much nicer year now that everything settled :)

2007-01-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

Confusion. Anger. Helplessness. Desperation.

I guess that basically summarised the past 12 days. I don't want to pursue anymore. If you wish to come back, and act like everything's fine, thats ok with me. I'd rather be ignorant then ignored. So please, don't shut the door on me anymore..

2007-01-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

I found a reason to start a wishlist....

http://se-ed.net/bamboosax/Pictures/Soprano%20Straight.JPG

lol..

2007-01-08T20:10:00.000+08:00

a good friend of mine once told me that a friend in need is a friend indeed....

............

............

............

.... he also told me that a friend with weed is better...

Orgasmic.

2007-01-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

Only word close enough to describe the Kaya Fondue with Goreng Pisang i had yesterday. I'm still thinking about it.

Here's one for Resolutions

2007-01-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

On the top of the list..
1. GET MY FREAKIN LICENSE.(if not to have a chance to drive, at least to shut everyone up about it)

Following closely...
2. Lose the belly and get in shape. (Yes, I admit i have it. I know its prominent. And i'm gonna try to do something about it.)

3. Stop spending so much. (Its a good year to start learning to be a scrooge, seems mildly impossible, but yes still quite achievable.)

4. Always say what I mean. (No more "I'm fine" coming from me when I'm not)

5. Forget. (About some)

6. Remember. (All those I've neglected for the last month or two)

7. Get into a good college

Song of the Moment

2006-12-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

This Boy by James Morrison

this boy wants to play
there's no time left today
it's a shame coz he has to go home
this boy's got to work, got to sweat
just to pay what he gets to get left all alone

let's step outside
let's go for a ride just for a while
no we won't get caught
well that's what i thought until we cried

i'm still here
but it hasn't been easy
i'm sure
that you had your reasons
i'm scared
of all this emotion
for years i've been holding it down
for years i've been holding it down

this girl tries her best every day
but it's all gone to waste
coz there's no one around
this girl she can draw she can paint
likes to dance she can skate
now she don't make a sound

we'll play in the park until it's too dark for us to see
well we'll make our way home
with mud on our clothes
she won't be pleased

for years i've been holding it down
and i'd love to forgive and forget
so i'll try to put all this behind us
just know that my arms are wide open
the older i get the more than i know
well it's time to let this go

Gotta love the lyrics...

And gotta love Grace for passing me such nice songs too...

Old School

2006-12-24T17:03:00.000+08:00

Took down the videos, coz they slowed down my blog, but here's the links if u want them..

For people who haven't saw these before, i found some videos called street fighter: the later years, pretty amusing...

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3

Enjoy..

2006-12-23T17:39:00.000+08:00

dreams forsaken,
people saddened,
all for a promise

naivity proven,
purposefully ignorant,
all for a person

2006-12-23T17:32:00.000+08:00

the greatest joy in the world is to be able to say the words I Love You to someone with your whole heart, and not worry about the what-if's...

Finding the past.

2006-12-18T12:30:00.000+08:00

I kinda recovered old photos I thought were long lost.. As predicted, the bouts of nostalgia hits me yet again..

Can't help thinking of the past, of happier days, simpler times, easier lives.

Got reminded of times where I was still so involved in the world around me. Jss gatherings, bbqs which I don't like organising, but do anyways just to see everyone. Of DNA and the countless late nights out having supper. Of being part of BAOC, looking at freshies and their confused faces when they first came in, of that stupid rap i came up with. Of YV, and my brush with volunteering.

How can someone be busy, and still keep all his friends close?

Someone or someones has to be left out, neglected. Force of circumstances? More like opportunity cost, cynical as it sounds. But I guess these kind of things go round in a cycle, and in the end you return to those whom, ultimately to you in your life, mean the most.

Ah well, me and my ranting off again...

"Why does it always rain on me? Is it because I lied when i was seventeen..."

Nonchalant

2006-12-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

That describes how i feel about everything now adays. The best way to describe to anyone my current mood would be well, moodless. I don't know since when, but i'm becoming more and more uncaring about the world around me. Its not as though i'm cold blooded, its just that i can no longer relate as much to people as i used to. Too much has been going on these few weeks, its as though major life changing decisions are saved for the end of the year for everyone. I guess that caring for others is getting tiring, draining, so much so that i've given up trying...

oh well. i'm just wierd now adays. irritable, cold, and not what i'm supposed to be.

One for the brother

2006-12-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

For the last minute projects,
for the balcony smokes and talks,
for watching Friends and getting a deadly bout of nostalgia,
for not being able to finish one single pint of Hoegaarden,
for cottage fries and cheese,
for gunbound-ing when we should be doing BLaw,
for Naruto, OC, Prison Break and all the random shows,
for getting EMO after The Classic,
for clubbing at MOS,
for the free rides home,
for random pillow fights,
for Melbourne,
for agreeing to watch the lame hilary duff movie,
for El Deliciouso,
for suaning me about my laughter,
for letting me suan you about being a little kid,
for being like a blood-related brother and loyal friend.

Thanks Jerms.

(this post is really gay, but fark he's leaving for the states next year!!!)

Cheena Moments

2006-12-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

Oh well, found too very apt songs of the moment.

enjoy.

Love

2006-12-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

is a subject I'm in no position to comment on, its like one of the greater mysteries of life to me. Love doesn't seem to make sense at all. Seeing the way it troubles everyone around me just gets me more confused. Its not like a don't understand or feel their pain, but why are people still doing things that they obviously know will hurt them more? Why would you still stay after you know that love is at it's end, holding on, hoping for a miracle? Why love when there's not even trust? Why would you say something so blunt and brutal to someone whom to your friends, it seems you truly love? Why are all relationships so fragile?

I guess i've become cynical as the years pass... Nothing seems to bother nor surprise me anymore... Just take life as it is i guess.

Disgusted with myself.

2006-12-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

I'm absolutely disgusted with my spending habits. I spend too much and earn too little. Why can't the army pay me more!!!!! Especially now that i need to feed myself daily in camp.....

I'm bitching, because my mom asked me to look for a part time job, and i really wish that something decent would come along. Its not like I enjoy being financially dependant on my parents.....

Oh well... This marks the beginning of me starting the blog again...

2006-08-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

Woke up with the mother of all hangovers yesterday.... Well, when better then your twenty-first to gain your virgin merlion-ing experience... tsk tsk.. really wanna thank everyone that turned up for my birthday, for understanding when i made a fool of myself... for offering to send me home even when i'm hurling chunks like a volcano... well, what better time to start saying thankyous then now right?

to peiyi: baby, thank you, for being there, for nursing me back to health, and for tolerating my totally irresponsible behaviour... i can't start to say how much i appreciate the things you do for me.. but yes, i guess its beyond words? i love you!

to the dysfunctionals: we've all got issues... we're all going through this cycle of being upset and being in total bliss.. its kinda funny... but to know that you guys are there is a blessing in itself.. i really think we're family, that fate bringing us together's cool, and that i'm really not sounding at all like myself when i say this... tsk tsk... love you guys!

to jerms: dude, grow up lah! and yeah, go pick up salsa from coco lee... hahahaha... anyways dude, u know i'm behind u no matter what u do man... so yeah... but we've really gotta talk soon yeah?

to jay: love the tshirt u bought for me man, definately clubbing wear! haha u still know me so well... don't drink n drive too much bro, and yeah, win more money yeah?? haha.. then can treat me more often...

to vi: i know your dirty little secret man! hahaha... but its cool yeah? i think its kinda surreal when u told me man... totally unbelievable... hahaha!!

to lis: i didn't expect you'd turn up girl! haha... sorry for my crazy friends who kept commenting about.... errmm... ok never mind...

to glor: thanks, for the super cool bling bling key that i tore up... but yeah... now alot of people are gonna start finding sorry excuses just to turn up at my house for a smoke all thanks to you! haha... i really hope i get my own place soon though... then at least i can put your present to good use...

to pau: sis, i'm really happy you turned up! but i really hate graveyards, and all thanks to you i was hurling chunks!! having known you for the past 8 freaking years, i can't believe i still have so much crap to say to you! but i do!!! so yeah, find more time to spend with me, and well, i know u can pick yourself up when u need to.. u've such a strong and independant character!!

2006-08-23T15:07:00.000+08:00

Dearest friends... Our epic battle at wala has been delayed for a day.. now it'll happen on the 27th instead :) cheers!

2006-08-20T13:51:00.000+08:00

Call to Arms

Dear Lords and Ladies of the Wala-ians Fellowship,

I am greatly distressed to be the bearer of such grave news, but our dearest watering hole is under invasion and we have been called upon to do battle against the evil hordes of Drunkeness. No doubt, the fear of falling to their infamous spell of Massive Hangover might make you doubt the worth of this expedition, but i call upon your loyalty to the fellowship to repond to this desperate call. Let us gather, one week hence, on the 26th day of the month of Lord Augustus 2 hours after sundown.

Yours Faithfully,
Kevin Chivasan
Lord of the Wiskey Drinker's Guild

2006-07-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

i'm back. and i guess that 2 words simply means the end of my whole period of clubbing/drinking in excess...

i say this every other time something happens, but i'm yet again at another crossroad.. i've changed yet another time, or should i say i've discovered what i am right now.. my perspectives of the world is different again, and well yeah, whenever that happens i kind of tend to distant myself...

i've been pissed-off a lot lately, at many people for no apparent reason... take for example yesterday night... i'm really restless in clubs, but then again, it was really a rare opportunity to see me pissed dear :) and i was really quite pissed for the prata thing btw.. can't really explain why, but yeah.... oh well, i still love you la...

hmmm... don't think i'm making sense here but well, i'm "word-vomitting" after a whole day of brainless activities at home, so bear with me..

2006-07-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

i have a dysfunctional life.

because i have dysfunctional friends.

the indian guy chinese/"malay" dude who shoot racist jibes at each other.

the crazy short fart who's damn good at the drums and watches korean variety game shows.

the gambling addict/alcoholic who drives a van

the guitar lover who went away to thailand

the cold girl who's perpectually hungry that's leaving for aus

the cynical girl who shuts up only when u press her moles

the comatose girl who loves looking out pandora's window

the caustic girl who's a big fan of punani

DAMN YOU ALL!

i mean.... how can i live without u guys??!?!?

2006-06-29T11:42:00.000+08:00

time.

our constant companion. our constant enemy.

don't you just catch yourself wishing the moment would last forever?

or that life stays unchanging?

then time forces you, always forward, and most likely unwillingly, into the unknown.

where old friends are lost, new ones are found, and into places we don't really want to be?

thats life.

2005-12-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

every time i hold you, i keep thinking, just how really really really lucky i am to have you in my life. to have that someone who loves me so, cares for me so, forgives me for being horrible half the time. i just wanted you to know dearest, that i love you! -muack-

tralalala, i can't help feeling lovey dovey some times too can i? :D

2005-12-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

its been a month since i last left a post... wow... hahaha.... i'm enjoying life and gaining back some weight right now after the long awaited POP, wishing that NS was just 3 months... tsk tsk.... 1 more week of break, before heading back to the cycle again... 2 years feels long... sigh....

2005-11-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

wish i could re-live my 18th year again. be an angsty teen just that once more. having the freedom to roam the streets and spend ample amount of my day wasting time. but as they say, time and tide waits for no man.

sigh..

life in tekong is quite an irony some times.
you get wonderful breath-taking views everyday, and no one to share them with.
you rush everywhere, just to wait.
and you don't salute the veterans with 20 years service, but you are suppose to do the young guy just fresh out of OCS?

ah well...

2005-10-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

I haven't blogged in ages... Well my last entry was when i still had a pink IC. not anymore... Sigh, army sucks, its getting worse coz i'm going for field camp coming monday, a.k.a. tomorrow... and there's just been soooooo many people i haven't met since i went in. I miss everyone! I miss the life i used to have! and i'm so allergic to green right now.

2005-09-08T19:20:00.000+08:00

In a little more then 12 hours, I'll be swearing in as an NS man. I'll be becoming an indistinguishable baldie with black framed glasses.( rubs head now and sighs ) I can't help feeling helpless, but I guess I'm a little excited too. I wanna be fit! Haha... Just shaved my head, and i can't stop rubbing it...

2005-09-05T04:08:00.000+08:00

To my dearest, for being selfish and unfair, I'm sorry. I know I'm not treating you the way you would love me to. I know I'm not spending enough time with you. I know I'm not living up fully to your expectations of a boyfriend. And I know that I love you. I want to say that I know how much you have done for me. I can't guarantee I will change, but I'm starting to try my best. Give me time, dearest.

2005-09-04T13:02:00.000+08:00

ARMY!!! its in 5 days time... sigh... goodbye freedom...

2005-08-30T14:51:00.000+08:00

To everyone who didn't get my reply for wishing me happy birthday, I'm really sorry. It can either be I was too high to remember anything at that point in time and assumed i already replied you, or the sms mysteriously didn't get through. I'm not sure why there were so many, I couldn't have forgotten so many people right?

Oh well..

Thanks guys!

2005-08-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

Memories.

The most priceless gift ever, is 20 years worth of memories. Sad ones, happy ones, funny ones, hurtful ones, troubling stressful ones, all of them, and all the people who i share them with, they just worth so much to me. Reminiscing old times is just about one of my favourite hobbies, although I don't do it that often, after all, how can one move forward if he constantly turns back? Sigh, life is beautiful, and I sincerely thank everyone who's made it so.

2005-08-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

Daytona Showdown!

I don't know who's going to Alley Bar on friday night, but I sure hope to at least see the few people who've mentioned daytona. Since we're already meeting, why not we have a match on that day! Lets see who's the real daytona pro! What i actually mean, basically, is that i hope to see everyone down at Alley tomorrow!! haha...

2005-08-21T19:18:00.000+08:00

Sundays.... They're like my unofficial sleep in day of the week, partially because my parents think its nice that i'm home on sunday when the relatives are over, but mainly coz the dinner on sundays are especially good. Had a buggering headache in the afternoon, so i went back to bed after lunch... I'm not getting slimmer i know, but ah well.... my legs are aching from my jog yesterday, which kinda shows just how out-of-shape i am... but ah well, more of me to love i guess... haha... There seems to be so many people i wanna meet and so little time left till i'm heading into national slavery... I wanna meet up with everyone!!! and i wanna go do some good solid work too!(pau ah, you've infected me with workaholictis)

2005-08-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

i don't praise people on a regular basis, but this ass is just a creative genius lah... i can't help but admire his art sometimes, though if he asks, i'd rather die then admit it... so here's to you Kit, you sick-in-the-mind boy.

2005-08-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

i've just ascended into cow(or bull)-hood, and well it nearly slipped my mind... but well....

Salutations to lionel.... you silly rabbit! hahaha...

2005-08-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

Why is it that couples argue, quarrel, scream at each other and basically break each others' hearts by saying things they don't mean?

Why would they do that, only to apologize afterwords, giving excuses that they didn't mean a single word they said, asking for forgiveness?

I suppose this is probably linked with the fact that you're never civilized with your family, and so extremely polite to people who are nearly strangers. But it is hard to look at someone screaming at you as a form of affection don't you think? Well, its true that a relationship without its' downs is definately incomplete and very much stagnant, and making up after a shouting match does has its charms, but i still don't understand...

Sigh, the expressions of love in the world is such an obscure subject, no wonder music in general uses it as a base theme... hahah...

Its just another one of my musings i guess.

2005-07-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it... i'm starting to play gunbound again... it's all jermaine's fault... that ass got me hooked again...

oh well.... can't wait to go clubbing tomorrow... haha... make sure jianning's wasted tomorrow... oh well, a super advanced happy birthday to my dear sis... :D

2005-07-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

create your own visited country map or check our Venice travel guide

hmmm... quite interesting actually.... looks quite big too! haha...

2005-07-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

you know.... i'm pretty sure you're never entirely sure of how much i really miss u.... well i really really really do miss you most of the time dearest beloved(except when i'm kinda reading harry potter), but ya! you get what i mean don't you?

2005-07-17T14:38:00.000+08:00

i'm in love with the oboe. went for tokyo kosei concert yesterday at esplanade, and i kinda got blown away when they started playing.... monster players i swear, all of them are godly...... and well, i'm in love with the sound of the oboe, although the player was kinda extreme when he moves.... this middle-aged man with dyed hair... kinda freaky lah japanese... oh well....

met up with vinod and rod at night at wala, and we ended up having a crazy idea of drinking by the pool side... so we went back to my place and just sat and chill till like 5 in the morning... cool shit...

2005-07-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

feeling melancholic again. i guess its one of those days... ah well... met up with my female twin today, and enjoyed her company as usual... been catching up with the old friends alot recently, probably the impending army lurking in the near future thats making me try to spend more time with people... i guess over time i've learned to appreciate the company that i've been blessed(or cursed) with, and i really really really really love my friends! hahaha...

2005-07-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

Looking up at the stars, nostalgia filling him.
With guarded feelings, he wonders, he ponders.
The thin line between right and wrong,
like both sides of the hunter's belt.

2005-06-19T03:04:00.000+08:00

I've officially obtained a don't-give-a-damn attitude towards most things in life now. Those farkers at work better give me pay or i'll kill them.

2005-06-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

Guys! Gonna do some advertising now... There's a party on the 18th of june at Rav, playing RnB all night long! Everyone should come, we'll probably have a good time u know? Rav is located along Circular Road, ambience of the place is not bad, decent deco and all.... Have a massive gathering there or something, u know? Cover + 1 free drink for $15 only... Contact me for tix yeah?

2005-06-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

Ever had a conversation without words? Where everything that needed to be said can be said through your eyes and smile? Where a simple "I know" suffice the whole need for the use of words that seems redundant and clumsy at the moment?

Its alot like love isn't it? Well it IS love. The type that i know so well :D

(there's lots more to it, which seems redundant coz you know it, don't you? haha... but its nice to let u know huh? had one of the best conversations ever tonight.) So... Here's to you, my dearest irreplacable sister. Thank you.

2005-05-31T13:50:00.000+08:00

I think i'm wierd.

The sound of a metal tea spoon hitting against a filled ceramic or glass mug gives me a massive headache, and makes me grind my teeth. I just can't stand the sound for some reason. To the extend of being unbearable... oh well.

2005-05-28T18:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm does anyone have adobe photoshop to lend?

2005-05-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

GRACIE KOH!!!

we better meet up soon. i miss you.

(expect rach and sandy to start bitching on my tag board right about now for not mentioning them).....(glor too.)....

2005-05-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

forgot to add that i...
- had international buffet at JW Marriott hotel, the salmon sashimi kicked ass.. or should i say it OWNED.. still mouth watering now as i think of it.
- went to a place called the CHEESECAKE factory... tried 4 different flavours(out of more then 20) of cheese cake, and nearly melted on the sofa.
- went to this place opened by Afro Americans called Chicken and Waffles, and well.... had chicken and waffles... the waffles are to die for... fried chicken taste almost the same the world round so yeah...
- had dim sum in hong kong, honkie style! and got bored of ordering really slowly...
- chatted with the most amount of total strangers, in a week, in my entire life!
- got lost in a foreign land alone
- went window shopping for antiques
- went to a temple alone for the first time in my entire life

well.... lots of first time experiences for me... which is pretty amazing...

and yeah, i didn't shop when i was in hongkong. which is like the wierdest thing ever.

2005-05-25T18:38:00.000+08:00

there's sooooo much i want to blog about!!!

some happy, some frustrating and sad....

was alone at ocean park today, i'm in hongkong now btw... the view from the top was really amazing but couldn't help feeling lonely there... feeling lonely inevitably lead to me thinking again of... well, never mind...

on the way down and out of ocean park, met this girl with a real unique name.. we were alone in the cable car... she claims that she's called Sorry, explaining that she got that name coz she's always doing the wrong things daily... so cute i tell you! communicating in chinese is kinda challenging though.. kinda regretted not asking her out for coffee, i just didn't think of it at the moment... gave her my email though, praying hard now she'd email me or something... but i'll probably need someone to decipher it for me.... tsk tsk...

anyway, i miss everyone!!! i'm so homesick right now actually, wish i was home... sigh...

decided i'll sum up my trip in a few sentences...

-tried alot of different asian food.... thai, viet, chinese, japanese...
-went to a world class jazz place called yoshi's... its also a real good jap restaurant btw..
-tried sake at yoshi's for the first time in my life and love it.
-went to fisherman's wharf and laughed at how spastic seagulls look.
-discovered how hard it is to walk in san frans, harder then in ngee ann.. the hills kill you..
-got lost in bro's car...
-smoked in the front porch of bro's place, chilling out with his friends.
-played mahjong with americans. (wtf i know.) it was funny.
-got to know this cute a.b.c girl called Anna
-nearly died on the plane to hongkong... 14 hours kill.
-walked around hongkong
-checked out alot of touristy places in hongkong...

oh well thats it for now.... didn't shop since i dont have the mood to... oh well... will update more when i'm back!

2005-05-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

In less then 12 hours, I'll be on my way to San Francisco. I'll probably rot to death on the flight.

feeling so angsty for no reason... rahhhhhhhhhh.

why do i have a bad feeling that nothing good happens whenever i leave the country?

2005-05-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

anyways, i wanna have a nostalgia party too! we should really have one! just saw glor's fotos from her party, and i can't resist anymore....

imagine.... all of us dressed up in our sec school uniform, eating mamee and god-knows-what other old-school tidbits, checking out each other's report books, laughing about it, and watching shows like ninja turtles/beetle juice/x-men/smurfs. it'll be like super fun..

what does everyone think?

2005-05-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

glor's complaining... so once again its time for me to have YET another I love glor post.

i know it, you know it, everyone knows it. but since u're like my bestest best female friend, i'd say it once again.

I LOVE YOU GLORIA!

and just in case you couldn't see that with your squirty little eyes, i've taken the liberty to enlarge it for you.

I LOVE YOU GLORIA!

there.

2005-05-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

California~~~ California~~~~~ Here I come...

woot... pray be, i'd be watching the O.C. on fox on thurs night in california ;) woot... orange juice land here i come!! drink till there's no tomorrow!

2005-05-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

a vicious circle. round and round it goes.
love, hate, hate love, love hate.
good and evil and the thin line in between where we often stand.
isn't that the place where you'd find love?
where you lose it?
where you use hate to get out of?
irony.

theres so many men saying how women are all bitches.
and just as many women saying men are all bastards.
one saying the other's not to be trusted.
the other saying just the same thing.
well then, we're all not to be trusted.

another non-commonsensical post... tsk tsk...

2005-05-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

i found the answer to the universe again!

42.

not easy to remember though. oh well.

2005-05-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

oooo.. pride...

Your Deadly Sins

Pride: 60%

Gluttony: 40%

Greed: 40%

Wrath: 40%

Envy: 20%

Lust: 20%

Sloth: 20%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%

You will become famous - and subsequently killed by a stalker.

How Sinful Are You?

2005-05-14T14:41:00.000+08:00

what a night.... china black might not have fantastic music.... but we make the best of it!!! haha... it always rocks to club with SO MANY FRIENDS! haha... oh well.... enjoyed myself alot, though i didn't enjoy waking up this morning... tsk....

2005-05-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

anyone with gmail invites to spare? haha... give me one please! i'm sick of hotmail.

2005-05-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

oh.

game for clubbing on friday the 13th? join us at china black then.

don't even think about me buying anyone drinks. not gonna happen. i'll be selfish and get drunk all alone.

2005-05-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

-blogging whats on my mind-

i've never been good at relationships. i don't think i ever will be. you see, every time i finally decide that i'm actually in love, i'll screw up. i'll become childish, irritating, a pain in the ass. i'll do things i never meant to do. but i do things for a reason. i don't, or should i say can't, keep my emotions in line for long. everytime i draw near to someone, i'll predictably and systematically fall in love. which sucks. some might say it's probably an infatuation, and they're right half the time. but the few times they were wrong, all i really wanted to do, was to give it all i've got, so as to not regret not taking action at all. coz i've made that mistake once, and i never ever want to do that ever again.

i think i'm too affectionate for my own good at times. and yes, screw the whole nice guy streak. who the fuck cares or gives a damn or notices if you're a nice guy. sure, they'll like you, that is, as a friend, but no matter, the bad guys get the girls. soft spot theory, simple as that. so from now on, i don't think i'll be a nice guy anymore. who says i can't? there's always a bastard lying dormant inside each and every guy.

the world's fucked up. so am i.

2005-05-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

but those bastards plotted against ME, their HOST! pushed me into the pool....

2005-05-11T00:04:00.001+08:00

we were like suppose to take a guys only foto....

2005-05-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

had a class bbq at my place, first one in 4 years... and well, quite a few unexpected and rare guests turned up... had fun...

2005-05-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

from that to this.... quite a bit of change i guess.... lol...

2005-05-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

kit just sent me a foto.... this is what i call a blast from the past.... REALLY haunting foto... haha... well decided to have a laugh at it... i did inspire to be a nerd in the past...

2005-05-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

got high yesterday..... ended up at walla walla in the end, with the original people who were suppose to be at dbl o.... no idea wtf, but yeah.... had a rather interesting night i guess... oh well...

2005-05-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

having a drinking session canceled on you sucks really bad... and i was so very much hoping i could let lose and have fun tonight at dbl o... oh well...

2005-05-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

haha.

sigh.

oh well.

winter has taken up permanent residence in me right now.

well, at least my smile's frozen in place.

2005-05-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

guys, it'll be easier to view my fotos from the bottom up(yes as usual) since i uploaded them that way... haha... anyway this is only half of the fotos, there's still the other half with jerms... didn't really uploaded all of mine anyway, since i took TOO MANY FOTOS! haha.. enjoy.

2005-05-01T13:57:00.000+08:00

my hotel lobby...

2005-05-01T13:56:00.001+08:00

under the bridge, or railway...